Most days in May I have screamed, cried, felt sad/miserable and generally not felt myself. I feel broken, I feel cheap, I feel used and my trust is completely shattered. It’s important to state it’s not the person who’s made me feel like that, it’s the situation and how it happened. Right now I would say this is worse than the anxiety I experienced in 2017. I had sessions with a counsellor and I had a best friend that made me feel calm and was my getaway from everything that was going wrong when I went through the anxiety. I don’t have that anymore. Remarkably, I have still manged to find a daily highlight.
Here’s what made me smile:
May 1: Halo cuddles.
May 2: My Beauty Joint order arrived.
May 3: Macaroni cheese for lunch.
May 4: Tried some new makeup and saw Avengers: Infinity War.
May 5: Can’t beat a good movie.
May 6: Schnitzel for dinner, haven’t had that in a while.
May 7: Bright orange lipstick.
May 8: Homemade pizza for dinner.
May 9: The weather was lovely.
May 10: Crispy hot chips!
May 11: Found the prettiest cream highlighter palette 😍
May 12: Freshly painted nails.
May 13: Got to have my favourite BBQ Rodeo burger from Burger King.
May 14: Started a new book.
May 15: Pretty pink highlighter.
May 16: Kylie’s ‘Golden’ really cheered me up.
May 17: Plucked my eyebrows and cleaned my makeup brushes.
May 18: Pizza Hut chips were good.
May 19: Spent most of the day in bed looking after my sick self.
May 20: Bold lipstick is always a good idea!
May 21: Bronze/copper eyes.
May 22: Falling in love with Maybelline’s ‘The Nudes’ all over again.
May 23: Vanilla Latte after work.
May 24: Felt like blog post writing and singing again.
May 25: Productive morning.
May 26: Elements of bravery today.
May 27: Leftover pizza.
May 28: One of my favourites stayed on Dancing With the Stars.
May 29: Bought some cream buns at the supermarket.
May 30: One of my better moods in a while.
May 31: Made a list of things I want to do during my time off from work.
What were you grateful for in May?
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Chanelle Hayley 
Leftover pizza is the best thing ever xx
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Normally I have it cold but this tasted even better reheated!
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I’m sending the biggest hugs!
I know you’ll get through this and definitely your Gratitude posts like this can be helpful in finding at least one positive of each day!!
Sending love!
Claire xxx
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Thank you lovely! I wrote the intro for this post last week and I am doing better this week. I didn’t change the words because I’ll be able to look back at them one day and see how far I’ve come xxx
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Yum! Homemade pizza!
My favourite day in May is May 26 – spent it with friends having BBQ and drinks.
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Not the dough unfortunately, just pizza that wasn’t bought.
Sounds like a lovely day!
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Sorry to hear you’ve been sick.
But it’s great that you’re ready to sing and write again. xo
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I’m sorry to hear May wasn’t good for you lovely. You can always pm on Instagram to talk💕 Sounds like there was lots of yummy food and great makeup though in May x
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Yes food and makeup make me feel better slightly! I’ve lost weight though which is surprising considering I had some treats this month, I guess I haven’t been eating as much. I feel like I’m bothering people when I talk to them but I may take you up on that offer over the weekend ❤ x
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Sometimes upset can cause weight loss. Don’t be daft. You never bother me. Message anytime you like xxx
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Thank you for always being so sweet x
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