7 Strange Fears I Have

Hi everyone! I had a light-bulb moment last week which resulted in an interesting post idea. I am always talking about what I love but what about my fears and things I’m afraid of? There is a misunderstanding that sharing what scares us makes us weak and more vulnerable. Personally, I try not to dwell on these fears and try to focus on what I can do to overcome them, no matter how small. So, here I am opening myself up to you yet again. Enjoy!

1. Driving

So many people mention to me how independent you are if you can drive and you’ve got your own vehicle. It is definitely something I agree with and I am slowly working my way towards having my own car. Driving is enjoyable for a lot of people but ever since I became a teenager it has filled me with anxiety and dread. It actually terrifies me to think of myself in the driving seat, not because I’m scared of having an accident or getting injured but because I’m the one responsible for controlling that vehicle and I worry I won’t have enough practice or knowledge in certain situations. I’m sure once I familiarise myself with how a car works and what everything does the feelings of angst will improve. I need to get some hands on experience and stop putting it off. Another reason driving scares me is because everyone else seems to find it so easy and I’m worried I won’t. I’m torn between throwing myself in at the deep end (so to speak) and taking it at my own pace.

2. Public Speaking

Surely I’m not the only one who hated speeches and presentations at school. The thought of standing up in front of classmates or a group of people was one of my least favourite parts of school. In my last year at school we had to give a presentation which was to be video recorded as well, doubly scary! I was lucky on the day I did mine that the camera was broken and most students weren’t in class that day. I ended up getting ‘Merit’ – the second highest mark after ‘Excellence’. What made speeches worse is the fact you know the audience listening to them and you worry they will make fun or judge you if you mess up. We’re more afraid to be judged by those we know than strangers. This relates to singing for me as well, I’m more scared to sing in front of friends and family than I would be a group of strangers. Working in retail for the past two years has helped me feel more confident and comfortable speaking to other people as it’s an important part of my job.

3. Nakedness

Now before you go getting the impression I’m a total prude let me explain. I’m not afraid of other people being naked or naked bodies but the lack of confidence with the way I look. When I have clothes on I can kind of cover up and choose what I want to show off, if anything. I don’t always feel comfortable showing off skin, wearing a low cut top or a short skirt. I kind of like having a bit of mystery and not showing everyone what’s underneath. Compliments about my body will always be accepted with a thank you and they do help reassure me. Lester says a line in the film American Beauty which goes, “I want to look good naked!” I am more relaxed about the way my body looks than I used to be but I think we all have a bit of Lester in us! This fear is probably my most personal. Nakedness signifies intimacy which only a select few get to see. Bodies are beautiful. Being touched feels pleasurable. You shouldn’t feel ashamed.

4. Talking On the Telephone

Some people love long phone calls and can’t go a day without talking to each other. I feel the same about my boyfriend but we always message each other instead. I have called his phone once and the signal was crap so I ended up texting anyway. I don’t mind talking on the phone if it’s a planned call or it’s a family member but unexpected calls make me nervous. When I started at the pharmacy I was scared to answer the phone but by the end it became second nature and now at work I think nothing of it.

5. Running Out of Time

This is kind of a weird one… I like being organised and having plans in place and if something comes up or I’m in a rush I feel like I don’t have enough time and I’m going to be late. I also worry about this in the sense that at times life can feel like it passes by so quickly and you don’t have things figured out. It does scare me that I don’t know what I want to do for a job or if I’ll be able to afford to buy a house or if I’ll end up going traveling. At the same time, I have learned that you can’t always worry about stuff like that and you have to live in the moment and make the best of each day. Slowly I am learning to go with the flow… to an extent.

6. Needles

When I was a kid I didn’t get upset when I had injections or blood taken. I would sit still and just let the doctor/nurse do whatever they had to do. When I was younger I would always get flu vaccinations and didn’t flinch. At 10 years old I was immunised at school for meningitis and meningococcal disease and completely switched. I was scared to have the injection and my mum had to come in and sit with me so I would have it. I don’t think I’ve had a blood test since I was 13.

7. Trying New Foods

I have ALWAYS been a fussy eater. I’m not the kind of person who particularly enjoys eating; I eat to live not live to eat. If I go out for dinner I try to find menus online to pre-pick what I’m going to have. If I’m at a restaurant I don’t want to try something that I may or may not like, it’ll feel like a waste of money if I don’t. I’m not very adventurous when it comes to flavours either.


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What I Eat In a Week

What I Eat In a WeekSeeing as I received so much positive feedback when I gave you a look inside my blog planner last week I thought you might also enjoy seeing inside my food diary. I began documenting my meals in 2014 and have been doing so for the best part of two years. (There were a few months from September 2015 – January 2016 where it fell by the wayside but other than that I’ve kept it up).

I initially started recording what I ate in an effort to be more healthy and it does work. For example, if you eat an apple you feel good about writing it down but if all you’ve eaten that day is chocolate it does make you feel slightly guilty. Of course that’s not to say you can’t indulge and have a treat now and again but I like the control it gives, it tests my willpower and makes me feel good knowing I have a balanced diet. As you will see my diet isn’t ‘perfect’ and hasn’t been the best these past few weeks but I’m still getting over being sick and working my way back into an eating plan and exercise routine. I also record any exercise I do but as you will see again, there hasn’t been a lot of that happening either.

Typo Food DiaryMy current food diary.

Like my blog planner I use Typo’s Spinout notebooks. They come in a range of patterns and designs and they feature an elastic closure and the pages are lined. I find the A5 size perfect for using as a food diary and I can normally fit a week’s worth of food across a double page spread. These notebooks last me around eight months so it’s exceptional value. Typo quite often have offers on these notebooks as well – I always try to pick a couple up when I see a cover or quote I really like.

Typo Food Diary and PensI use Paper Mate InkJoy pens to colour code.

Also, like my blog planner I colour code. I use light blue for the day/date at the start of each day and for recording all my food and exercise. I also record the times I eat and times I exercise; orange for food, green for exercise. I record the number of minutes I exercise for in purple and the amount of calories I’ve burnt in pink. (The calories only get recorded when I Exercycle as it has a calorie counter).

29 Feb Food Diary 1       29 Feb Food Diary 2

Click images to enlarge. (Sorry about the quality, we’ve had gloomy mornings all week).

Although I record what I eat one thing I would like to try is meal planning. That would help me stick to a schedule and make it less likely for me to be tempted by goodies and treats. If you have any further questions or would like me to clarify anything, leave a comment below. Thanks for reading!

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Brand Focus: kikki.K

Brand Focus: kikki.KHelloooo! Even before I started blogging I was a huge fan of stationery, looking at it, shopping for it and buying it. A couple of years ago I discovered kikki.K, a brand founded by self confessed stationery lover Kristina Karlsson. kikki.K aims to follow the Swedish design principles of form and function whilst providing stationery, gifts and organisation solutions. Kristina believes being organised in style helps you achieve a sense of well-being which improves quality of life.

kikki.K have recently opened a pop up store in London as well as announcing the opening of a permanent store on James Street. kikki.K inspires creativity; whether you love capturing and sharing special moments, creating an inspiring home or workspace or fulfilling your love of pen and paper.

I have purchased a number of things from kikki.K and had items gifted to me over the past couple of years. kikki.K oozes quality, style and sophistication and is easily one of my favourite brands! kikki.K regularly come out with new collections, which is perfect if you like to mix and match your stationery. Each collection reflects a different personality.

Today I will be giving you a rundown on the items I own and sharing my love for the brand. Links will be provided to all products available on kikki-k.com.

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1. Page Markers | Cute collection – RRP: $4.90

These page markers were my first ever kikki.K purchase. They make handy bookmarks, page markers for studying and you could even try using them as fridge magnets as they are magnetic.

2. Mini Daily Planner Pad | Cute collection – RRP: $9.90

If you have a busy day planned or an event coming up you need to plan for these pads are really helpful. They help you break down what you need to prioritise, make sure you keep your fluids up with a water tracker and include a space to write down a daily treat, we all need a bit of ‘me time’.

3. Printed Notepad | Cute collection – RRP: $16.90

Firstly, I love the thickness and quality of this paper. Each kikki.K notepad comes with 120 pages and features blank, ruled, and lined paper allowing you to choose whichever you need. The designs on this notepad include fruit, weather and animals.

4. Everyday Gel Pen | Live Bright collection – RRP: $4.90

I love the array of different designs these gel pens come in. The Live Bright collection is no longer available but when it was out the pink, lilac and gold tones were right up my street! I liked the simplicity of this design and how ‘Live Bright’ also acts as a positive affirmation.

5. Ballpoint Pen Refills 4pk – RRP: $5.90

What’s even better about kikki.K’s gel pens is that they are refillable. I purchased a pack of refills when I made an online order last year and I actually haven’t even finished the original ink in my gel pen yet. I really like the ink, it dries quickly and doesn’t smudge.

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6. Weekly Habits Pad | Inspiration collection – RRP: $6.90

I received this as a present from my brother about six months ago and it’s genius lies in it’s simplicity. I am very much a routine person and like habit. If I want to cut out chocolate and potato chips for example, I use this to see how many days in a week I can go without them.

7. Food & Exercise Journal | Inspiration collection – RRP: $22.90

This is another present from my brother but I haven’t used this journal yet. I currently record my food and exercise in one of Typo’s A5 spinout notebooks and once I’ve reached the end of that I’ll look at giving this journal a go.

8. A5 Life Journal | Inspiration collection – RRP: $29.90

I purchased this journal back in July and it is the most beautiful colour. The gold lettering also makes it look more expensive than it is. My aim for this journal is to write in it every day before I go to bed as a way to unwind and get rid of the day’s thoughts. I started off really well but writing in it daily has fallen by the wayside. I need to get back into it as it’s nice to have an empty mind and leave the day behind before going to bed.

If you get the chance to visit a kikki.K shop don’t pass up the opportunity! Everything is incredibly beautiful and you won’t regret it. If there’s not a store near you, you can always take a look at their website. kikki.K ship internationally and the blog part of the site offers information about the brand and shows you how to use their products.

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Get Ready With Me: Weekend Glam

Get Ready With Me: Weekend GlamHi everyone! Hope you all had a lovely weekend! This was one of the first weekends in a while that I’ve felt I’ve been able to relax and haven’t had anything crop up or on the go. I had been looking forward to this weekend for a long time, ever since Ellie Goulding announced the release date of her third album ‘Delirium’. While I was getting ready to go into town I came up with the idea to do a little OOTD/FOTD/Get Ready With Me post as well as sharing the rest of my weekend with you. Enjoy!

Outfit of the Day

Saturday's OutfitPants: Black leggings

Top: Cream t-shirt with black shoulder detailing

Shoes: Holster sandals in Pewter

Face of the Day

Saturday's MakeupInstead of just listing the products like I normally do, I thought I would give a step by step guide to how I did my face.

1) Using Garnier’s Micellar Water (not pictured) I cleansed my skin before applying Simple’s  Light Hydrating Moisturiser.

2) After 20 minutes I patted Rimmel’s Fix & Perfect Primer in the shade 001 into my skin.

3) Next I applied my eyeshadow using Maybelline’s ‘The Nudes’ palette.

Weekend Glam Eye LookI used the two taupe shades in the top right hand corner and the black shade to line my crease.

Eye Makeup Close Up4) Moving onto my base. I used Rimmel’s Match Perfection Foundation in 081 Fair Ivory and Maybelline’s Fit Me Concealer in 15 Fair.

5) For mascara I opted for my trusty Rimmel ScandalEyes Lycra Flex. This mascara gives my lashes a lovely curl that lasts all day.

6) Time for blush. Dainty Doll’s You Are My Sunshine is a lovely rose-gold and I apply this by swirling my ring fingers in the compact then rubbing them both together to get an even amount of product. I lightly dab the blush on to the tops of my cheeks in a circular motion.

7) You all know lips are my favourite part of my makeup routine and for this look I tried something new. I patted Revlon’s Tutti Frutti Lip Butter into my lips to get a light wash of colour then layered L.A. Colors’ Glossin Go lip gloss in Sherbet (not pictured) on top to give my lips shine. The result, a luscious peach lip!

Selfie Fun!All made up and ready to go!

The first stop for mum and I in town was lunch. The two of us shared a strawberry thickshake and some hot chips.

LunchAfter lunch the time had finally come to buy Ellie’s CD; what this whole trip was about.

DeliriumI couldn’t resist playing the album as soon as I got home and I suspect it will be a real grower. Ellie is one of those artists who I know I will love pretty much everything she does and her music always makes me feel happy and excited when I listen to it. I can still remember the day I purchased her first album and how I would listen to it literally every day.


There’s not much else to report really. Sunday involved me sleeping in and not getting up until rather late *ahem 12:30pm* and catching up on blogging and getting this week’s posts written up for you. I hope you enjoyed this post and do let me know what you did with your weekend!

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Sick Day Essentials

Sick Day EssentialsHello lovelies! How was your weekend? I hope it was a lot better than mine! I wasn’t feeling the best so I spent most of my weekend in bed but I still found enough energy to take a few pictures and get the majority of work done for this week’s blog posts.

I got a sore throat in the middle of last week and I hoped it wasn’t going to turn into anything serious as my colds normally start in my nose. The downside to working in a pharmacy is how easy it is to be exposed to illness. I should be thankful I don’t get sick very often but when I do I have to be very careful as I’m asthmatic and have to make sure my breathing is okay. Here’s an insight into what the past few days have been like for me and what has kept me distracted from feeling so rotten.

1. Cough lozenges, medicine etc.

This is pretty bog standard when it comes to getting through a cold and I’ve been using it all from cough lozenges to paracetamol to nasal spray. The Strepsils Honey & Lemon lozenges have really made a difference. These lozenges contain two antibacterial agents to help kill the bacteria causing my sore throat and help soothe my throat.

2. iPhone

I’ve loved being able to use my phone for multiple purposes this weekend. I’m currently obsessed with playing Candy Crush Soda so I’ve been using it for that as well as my own little sound system. The speakers are great quality and playing songs on my phone as opposed to my laptop means I don’t have to turn the device off and reshuffle the songs everyday. I’m one of those people who hardly has a day where I don’t let my music play through without skipping a song.

I was lying in bed on Saturday night scrolling through everybody’s posts using the WordPress app as well – so handy!

3. Dainty Doll – Wonderbalm

Is it just me who gets really dry lips when they’re sick? Dainty Doll’s Wonderbalm is the perfect thing to use as a lipbalm to keep lips nourished and supple. It sinks in and doesn’t leave a sticky feeling or leave bits of dry skin on the lips. It certainly lives up to its name!

4. Reading Material

Whether it be a book or magazines, reading is a great way to pass the time and keep your mind occupied. I decided to started re-reading Shane Filan’s autobiography My Side of Life. I read it within a matter of days last time and he always makes me smile so it’s a lovely distraction.

5. YouTube + Catching up on TV shows

I have been getting into YouTube and Vloggers a lot lately and I couldn’t wait to catch up on videos from Lily Pebbles and Vivianna Does Makeup. They are such great girls, always have interesting videos and are naturals in front of the camera.

At the weekend I also took the time to catch up on American drama series Revenge. I have watched it from the very first episode and series four (the last one) is airing in New Zealand at the moment. I’ve got four episodes left. To those of you who have already seen it/finished it, no spoilers please!

6. Homemade vegetable soup

My mum’s homemade vegetable soup is one of the highlights of the winter season for me and I very kindly asked her to make some as I thought it would make me feel better. It’s so yummy and healthy – I end up getting my five a day in one cup. (And when you have multiple cups a day…)

7. Chocolate

I’m not much of a sweet tooth and maybe this weekend I’ve indulged in chocolate more than I should, but I’m allowed right?! I’m definitely not a chocoholic but I do have a soft spot for Caramello – that combination of milk chocolate and smooth caramel is divine! Eating chocolate releases endorphins to make you feel happy and feel good which is what you need when you’re not well. Quite often I have chocolate when I have a headache and it always makes me feel better.

Caramello chocolate

Shhh!

Saturday was the worst day and I’m definitely feeling a lot better now than I was at the weekend.

Let me know in the comments what makes you feel better when you’re sick!

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Luscious Lolly Cake

Lolly cake (also known as lolly log) is a New Zealand staple! Seeing as I made some at the weekend, I thought I’d share the recipe with you.

Lolly cake is a simple recipe with no cooking time required. This is the perfect treat if you need to whip up something in a hurry for a shared lunch, an office morning tea or a bake sale.

Lolly cakePrep time: 10 minutes
Setting time: 4 hours

Ingredients:

  • 120g butter
  • 1 packet (250g) of Malt biscuits – crushed
  • 1/2 a tin (200g) of Sweetened Condensed Milk
  • 1 packet of Eskimo lollies or fruit puffs
  • Dessicated coconut

Instructions:

1. Melt butter, stir in condensed milk. Cool.

2. Cut up lollies into bite-sized chunks.

3. Mix butter, condensed milk, crushed Malt biscuits and lollies together.

4. Form into a log shape. Roll in coconut.

5. Chill in fridge for 4 hours.

6. When set, cut into slices and serve.

Tips: Coconut is optional, I didn’t have any so I didn’t put any on. Instead of rolling the mixture into one log you can make a few smaller logs as seen above.

Enjoy!

Chanelle x

Week In Review: November 10 – November 16, 2014

I post an update here every Sunday giving an overview of my week. Accompanying photos from my Instagram are also included. Here’s the latest:

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On Tuesday I picked up a copy of the November issue of British Cosmopolitan with Saturdays singer Rochelle Humes on the cover. In The UK Cosmopolitan is issued a month in advance so it feels like I’ve been waiting for forever to buy this. I went to buy a copy last week but it wasn’t in yet. I joked that because I was wearing my Saturdays charm bracelet it would be waiting for me this week and it was!

Also, inside the magazine were two samples: Hugo Boss’ Ma Vie Pour Femme and Rimmel’s Lasting Finish 25 Hour Foundation in Ivory. I liked the perfume and it stayed on well for a sample but I haven’t used the foundation yet.

My love for The UK and all things British is out of this world and I instantly fell in love with the canvas I purchased this week! It features the names of different tube lines in London and the colour of each line. It is a dream of mine to move to The UK so until I get there I can at least decorate with British memorabilia.

This morning was another case of waking up early and not being able to get back to sleep. I woke up shortly before 6am and after lying in bed and making an action plan for the day I decided to get up and make an omelette for breakfast. Normally I have fruit for breakfast but I felt like a change today. I’m not the most confident when it comes to cooking but the omelette was a success – the flip even went perfectly! I sprinkled the top with grated cheese and garnished with salt and pepper. Yummy!

How was your week?

Chanelle x