Redhead Rambles #19

Hello everyone and welcome to ‘Redhead Rambles’. The series does what it says on the tin, it is a redhead (me) rambling about her week. I share what I’ve been up to each week, how I’ve been feeling and what I’ve been listening to or watching. Occasionally I will my share favourite blog posts and links I’ve found useful or interesting.

  • This is the first Redhead Rambles post in over a month. During my blogging break I didn’t write them and this week is the first week where I feel like my mindset isn’t quite as negative as it has been.
  • Last Sunday I actually saw my ex-boyfriend (it still hurts to type that) for the first time in a month. I had been writing down what I wanted to say and I had every intention of getting angry at him but I couldn’t do it. Talking felt like old times and we even laughed together but I have begun to realise that I cared about him more than he cared about me and he wasn’t willing to fight to keep me. I need someone who loves me the way I love them. In no way do I feel animosity or like our love wasn’t important but I’ve accepted we won’t be together. One day I hope losing me hits him and he realises what he lost, I don’t mean that in an arrogant way but I know I’m not like a lot of other people and I’m different. I’m not saying I’m better for being different but my mind and personality is unique.
  • Monday was Queen’s Birthday in New Zealand so we got a long weekend and I got an extra day off work. I had a chilled day and spent the afternoon curled up on the couch with a book.
  • Work was busy-ish on Tuesday (as to be expected after a public holiday) and was very hot. There’s an issue with the boiler and until it gets fixed it’s like working in a sauna and the temperature can’t be turned down.
  • I also experimented a little with some makeup this week. On Tuesday I used Maybelline’s Molten Highlighter in Rose Gold as an eyeshadow base for MAC’s Tan pigment and my eyes looked lovely and sparkly. On Wednesday I wore the blue cream highlighter from the Chi Chi Unicorns & Mermaids palette for the first time and loved it! Blue works so well with a fuschia lip!
  • Wednesday was also my last day at work for a little while. I’ve got some annual leave. It’s my first proper break in a year.
  • On Thursday I had a huge sleep in. I also made cheesecake in the afternoon, the cheesecake is nice but sickly if I have too big a slice.
  • I shaved my legs for the first time in a couple of weeks. Using The Body Shop’s Vanilla Chai Body Scrub seems to work a treat at not making them dry and itchy.
  • The final of My Kitchen Rules Australia 2018 aired this week and unfortunately the team I wanted to win didn’t.
  • I have lost weight recently without really trying. With stress, being sick and not feeling as hungry there has been a noticeable difference. Mum and work colleagues have picked up on it.

What I’ve been listening to:

Jake Carter ft. Una Healy – Take Me Dancing – The upbeat, positivity of this song makes me happy. This is the type of song that makes you want to forget about everything and, dance.

Kylie Minogue – Golden – This album has been out for two months and after my break up the tracks took on more meaning. The album was penned after Kylie herself went through a break up and lots of the lyrics are how she felt and personal to her.

Ellie Goulding – Delirium – I was absolutely addicted to this album when it was released and it is still one of my favourites to listen to. Can’t beat an Ellie sing-a-long.

How was your week?


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24 thoughts on “Redhead Rambles #19

    • Chanelle says:

      The situation is complicated but let’s just say he wasn’t the one to directly hurt me so that’s why I’m not angry at him. I can honestly say I have been respectful and mature the whole way through the relationship x


  1. danniijane says:

    I’ve missed this series! Glad you’re feeling a bit better. You deserve someone who thinks the world of you💕 I find it so funny we don’t get time off for the Queen’s birthday. Crazy isn’t it?xx

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  2. stashy says:

    Uneven relationships never work. I’ve been on the opposite end where I wasn’t as into him as he was into me and it made me feel guilty. I say don’t let the negative feelings fester and consume you – in time, you won’t even think about him at all. 🙂

    Re: blue cream highlighter – I’m trying to picture that on you. I’m correct in assuming this was highlighter on your cheeks? 😮

    I think I’ve probably mentioned it before on my blog but I only shave my legs maybe 4 times a year. I’m really hairless. 😛 I like using the EOS shaving cream, it’s really pampering – I’ve had the same bottle for a couple of years now. 😆

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    • Chanelle says:

      I know we loved each other and I don’t really have any negatives to say about him or the relationship because it was so special to me and I’ll treasure that time in my life for a long time. Whoever my first love was I would have given so much of myself to them and I’m glad my first love appreciated it. The way the breakup happened was shit to put it bluntly and if you want more details I’m happy to tell you over an Instagram or Twitter DM. I don’t think the feelings were all negative, rather just confusion how it got to the point it did.

      The highlighter has a subtle hint of blue, kind of a purple-blue but it looks really pretty! I’ll have to swatch for you sometime or find a picture. Yes it was on my cheeks 😝

      Wow, you’re so lucky to shave them so little. Like most females I tend to shave them less during the cooler months because they’re covered up and the hairs don’t grow as fast. I’m scared to use any kind of shaving creams in case they irritate my skin so I’m happy the body scrub isn’t causing irritation 🙂

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      • stashy says:

        I understand, the first will always hold a special place in your heart which is normal. I think back on my first relationship fondly now even though at the time, the ending of it sucked. At the time I thought about all the time and effort wasted down the drain (we were together 3 yrs) and that I’d never be able to restart again. But relationships are complicated as you said, it’s not all good, or all bad. I guess my comment is more about the idea of wishing one day that he’d realize what he lost… it’s impossible to control that and it’s better to focus your energy on you. It’s easier said than done.

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      • Chanelle says:

        Not being arrogant but I hope he realises what he lost one day too, I’m not claiming to be the best person at relationships but I think I did pretty well for my first; I didn’t get jealous or insecure and I always felt calm and happy in his presence. There’s not many girls like me around and I hope I find someone who treasures me and thinks ‘I get to be with Chanelle’ 😊


  3. littlebeautyloves says:

    Wow, so courageous of you to see your ex so soon! I’ve seen exes years after a break up and they always seem to hit me hard. I hope that you found a bit of closure. You definitely deserve to have someone who will see your worth, and that person is worth waiting for. Trust me, I’ve been through a lot, but it’s all led me to the right person today and I know it will for you too!

    I really need to listen to Kylie, she used to be so big here in Canada after her hit, cant get you out of my head, and I used to listen to her albums. You mention her so much I’m going to find her more recent stuff!

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    • Chanelle says:

      The whole breakup situation was a difficult one to put it lightly and part of me is still confused as to how it got to that point, my ex and I never argued or did something to hurt the other, when I found out it was over I was dumbfounded. I also know I wasn’t naive and staying with him because I didn’t want to be alone, he was genuinely the most exciting part of my life and talking to him and seeing him made me so happy.

      Kylie’s music is special, no one seems to do banging, glittery pop tunes like she does!


  4. Galit G. Balli says:

    Sorry about your Ex, it’s never a nice feeling seeing them. But I am sure you are so better off and a strong person like yourself will find the right person and his just gonna regret that you are not in his life.
    Also, sorry about all the stress, however, losing weight is a really great feeling – For me, it’s a real struggle so every bit counts as a success 😉

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    • Chanelle says:

      I really don’t have negative feelings towards my ex and it was good to see him, we still get along and that’s nicer than being angry at bitter at each other. I hope I find someone who respects the person I am and feels a love for me that is special and they want to hold on to. I struggle to lose weight but I don’t actively try 😛 That’s the one positive about this breakup.

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    • Chanelle says:

      I don’t doubt what we had was love but it’s difficult when other people get involved. The situation is a little complicated and the bit that gets me the most is how the breakup happened, not the actual breakup itself.

      The Vanilla Chai scent is lovely 🙂


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